Sunday, February 11, 2007

Always Second Guessing

***Pictures have been removed from this post due to graphic and excessive snot content.

Not really, I just figured you really didn't want to see that.

Eden has been sick since Friday, when she started sneezing and shooting large amounts of snot out her nose. She seemed a little better during the day yesterday, but started getting worse, and coughing, last night. Today her lungs are crackly and she has a fever. We gave her tylenol and the fever seems to have gone, and she is sounding a little better after a few breathing treatments. We'll see how it goes, but I have a sinking suspicion that we may end up at the ER tonight.

Holland woke up with the sneezing and snot situation this morning. She always gets Pulmicort treatments once a day, as a preventative medicine, so this morning we increased it to twice a day.

I hate the feeling of dread, and worry, and anxiety that sits in the pit of my stomach when they get sick.

I hate trying to gauge whether we need to take them to the hospital.

I hate worrying about taking them to the hospital because they might be exposed to something worse.

I hate that Eden holds her breath and passes out when the doctor tries to measure her oxygen levels, then looks like her sats are way too low, then cries through treatments at the doctor's office like she is being tortured, which in turn, makes her sats look even lower.

I know it should be the least of my worries, but I hate that it costs $50 for a trip to the ER, even if we just get a treatment and go home.

All of these things add up to me constantly second guessing myself.

So, I guess we just wait and see. I so hope it's just a virus, and not RSV, and we don't have to go to the hospital.

9 comments:

Maggie said...

Sending lots of PP&T's that this is a quick virus that will be gone in no time! When I had to take Sarah to the ER 2 weeks ago for her eye laceration, I almost passed out from the thought of having her in the ER given the time of year, so I understand your worries.

I hope that Eden is back to her spunky self in no time!

sarahfurlough said...

Oh Billie, I am so sorry that the girls are sick. I will be sending lots of healthy get well soon vibes your way.

Anonymous said...

My fingers are crossed that no ER trip is necessary. Don't second guess yourself, go with your gut, that hasn't been off so far! Let me know if you need anything. Luv Ya Liz

Lisa said...

I hope the girls feel better soon and it isn't RSV!

Keeping my fingers crossed for no ER trips.

Kim said...

The same virus has been plaguing me all last week, so unless things get different than the usual snot fest don't be talked into the ER.

abby said...

I'm sorry to hear that the girls are sick and hope that they start feeling better soon. And we'll keep our fingers crossed here, too, that it's not RSV, that you don't need to visit the ER, and that the nastiness passes just as quickly as it came on.

Kim said...

Prayers and thoughts for you and the girls--I hope they feel better soon!

Anonymous said...

get well soon
love
emma and backy

Billie said...

Quick update: We had a good night and the girls slept 11 hours.

Eden did wake up sounding pretty bad, so I called the doctor's office. We have an appt at 3. I thought it would be good to check out her ears and lungs, just to make sure that we don't need any antibiotics.

Let's just hope that she doesn't hold her breath when they check her sats!